Shine for you

sometimes these things just come out.

I want to shine for you but,

My heart is torn in two

between loving you, and wanting to be the person I used to be,

and the fear of pain that stops me from being that person.

 

It's not fair.

I know, you're paying for his mistakes.

I don't want to be his mess up, his accident.

I want to be your perfection.

I want to shine for you.

 

Everything he's done to me, ripped me apart, and thrown me out,

has caused me to change the way I am.

I was outgoing, warm, and caring.

The me you've got is cautious, mistrusting, and dispairing.

 

 

I want to be the person I was,

Give you all I've got, and let you see how I can be.

I'm afraid to show that girl with the shining personality again.

The light has dimmed, to a dull glow, and I want to bring it back for you.

I want to shine for you.

 

I know you're worth it,

I know I can trust that you will keep the light of that old girl safe, in your heart.

But it is still hard for me to break down and suddenly be her again.

I'm so scared that everything I've built up will be torn down again.

All my defenses, the things keeping me safe, that I've worked so hard on,

could be broken if I give in, and let you see the real me.

I know I can trust.

I want to shine for you.

 

You bring out the real me, occasionally, for a peek, a test run.

Which is more than anybody has really seen for the longest time.

This makes me believe I can trust you with my heart, and my everything.

But, some things are easier said than done.

 

I can trust you.

And, if you give me the chance, I will.

I know you're not the childish boy that reduced me into this worthless state of nothing.

Maybe you can be the first to let me shine the way I used to,

Shine for you.

 

 

 

Reviews

[dawnmarie]

this piece ... i love it... yes i agree with the fact you need work on your stanza's but still over looking that and seeing what you have to offer.... you write from within and it really shines through your work...

[The Elder Pine]

hmm, has this really happened with you? If so what did the other guy do? The only advice once more is the stanzas.

[Becca :)]

this is again really good. and again i can relate to it. again, nice work. hehehe =]