I love you, really.

I wrote this, maybe, 4 or 5 years ago? I was 14 and "in looooove". I felt the need to share it anyways. I was really proud of it at the time, so here goes nothing.

It all started in high school, it was just last year,
when you asked me to be your's, through a smile, fell a tear.

Your undying love was nearly a drug to me,
but you stomped on my heart and it broke into three.

I honestly trusted you with all of my life,
but you tore me down with one long strife.

Your sensitive anger effected me most,
you treated me wrong but I tried to stay close.

It was easier the first time, I wasn't so attached,
but you came back a second time and my heart unlatched.

Everything changed, and what we had was long gone,
in time you came back and I took you, it was wrong.

We never lasted very long, from what I could see,
not even when you made that promise to me.

When you would call me, talk to me, and promise you would love me,
my instincts would tell me, "take him back, don't be silly."

I would always return to you whenever you'd want me to,
but you left me heartbroken, stranded, in the blue.

No matter how many times you decided to leave me,
I kept going back because I love you. Really.

It's been a while now, no phone calls or texts,
i still can't believe that we almost had sex.

You turn away from my love like it's a poisonous thorn,
and it makes my heart swell til it's just about torn.

As days go by, even months and weeks,
I see you again, and by nature you'd tease.

For the first time in a while I felt good again,
I was battling your love and in my heart I could win.

The day was ticking away, too slow, but too fast,
til it was finally over, my heart fell and crashed.

When the sun went down and you were already gone,
I sat down a while and my heart felt withdrawn.

You were using me up until the very end,
but I would risk getting hurt just to feel it again.

By now I should be over you, but it's not that simple,
I know the amount of times you've left me will triple.

It hurts to know that you can't see past my love's hallways,
you know i'd give you another chance, forever and always.

When you decide that you're ready, I'll always be waiting,
for that long wanted kiss, now my mind's really sailing.

And it all leads to me not thinking clearly,
because in the end, I love you. Really.

Author's Note

I'm not looking for criticism or anything. I posted this because I was really proud of it, at the time that I wrote it. I still think it's pretty decent. But reading it now, after all these years, I definitely see things that need to be fixed. But I'm leaving it the way it is, because when I wrote this, it came from the heart. Don't judge! :) (The picture is of me and said person. Oh, the memories..)

Reviews

[KAOlmsted]

This was tender and sad and packed full of raw emotion...you should be proud of it. Lovely work, brittneylynn.