Sometimes Tears Just Fall

Tears just sometimes fall out of my eyes 

They roll down my cheeks

Their momentum carrying a lifetime of grief

Building the courage for other tears to jump

Cascading into the truth my mind is not prepared for

And my heart can’t bear 

Worked so hard to build a home of memories

They now haunt me as I walk the halls alone

Unable to stay present 

As each piece of furniture or picture hung takes me on the journey of its origin

Twisted tails of hope 

All of them 

leading back 

to you 

It used to be just at night that my mind raced

But now it’s all the time

My body aching to be touch, to feel loved

But not just by anyone 

The specific hug that only comes from your arms that are so far away

Unknown 

if it will 

ever 

be again

The uncertainty is soul crushing 

The palace of my mind, a fortress I spent a lifetime building

Now I’m lost in a labyrinth of my own creation 

And all I want is you 

Home

And I don’t even know what home is anymore