Lying Alone

Speaking the words a second before they came spewing onto the keyboard I wrote this piece trying to understand growing up along side my fiance who was also growing up herself.

sometimes I wonder 
lying alone 
at what cost 
does one continue to grow 
growing away 
growing apart 
growing more conscious of body parts 
hardly does one 
ever come close 
to hearing about 
growing close

 

 

and if one does 
is it too much 
lost in the abyss 
of apart-less-ness 
is it 
too much 
so much that it hurts 
the growing up 
and out 
process 
so much that it becomes 
you, I 
lying alone