I Couldn't Find the Words to SayA Poem by briannachristine
I couldn't find any words to say
So I went on a walk today Tried to clear my head of everything that's happened Life appears to be happening to me Helpless, lost, alone So many people but so very alone Sometimes I try to reach out with a text or some cryptic Facebook post Most mostly I just sit and let the feelings fester;They like that; they grow I couldn't find any words today So I went on a walk where I didn't have to find any And I sat in the grass and I blew all my wishes on a flower I didn't know what to wish for so I just blew everything I could out And I sat Basketballs bouncing, dog collars jingle, children laughing And I sat I couldn't find my voice today The wordsmith I knew gave up for the day She turned off the lights, burrowed deep under the covers, and fell asleep for today So I took my body and we went for a walk We didn't get far before the pain came I just wanted to go for a walk Because the words I'm used to have left for today They got trapped somewhere in there Rolling around for a bit then they did something the don't often do; they gave up The effort doesn't seem worth it anymore Goals too lofty for this big girl especially all alone My voice is too far away today It got lost before I left and couldn't keep up So we walked on anyway Joy seems so attractive as it runs across the faces of children, out of mouths of friends, and in energetic bursts of tail wagging in dogs But Joy evades me and I sit here perplexed at how people can be so content My voice betrayed me today The walking helps get the anger out somehow But I'm getting tired of being let down And being alone on this walk is just a reminder of how I feel in life And I sit But no tears come out I forgot how to cry to relieve my emotions years ago When I realized they made me weak, and weak people stay alone So I sit Walking doesn't seem worth it somehow My voice stopped trying to catch up anyway Helpless Lost Alone I sit © 2016 briannachristine |
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Added on March 28, 2016 Last Updated on March 28, 2016 AuthorbriannachristineBeaverton, ORAboutI am a womyn with a lot to say and not a lot of time to say it or ears to hear it so I write it all down and dream of a day that my words will make a difference.... more..Writing
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