"Nights Such as These"

more insomnia ramblings...

 

 

 

"Nights Such as These"

 

 

How many nights, do you suppose

      that I will have to wrestle these tangled blankets

               of dreams alone?

How many times must I rearrange these thoughts,

        like my pillows, that I can never situate

                quite right, so I can actually fall asleep?

 

Then there are nights like these,

        where I finally fall off to sleep ~only to wake up again

               in the middle of my tossing and turning...

                       trying to calm my yearning,

                              so I am able to get up the next day

and do it all over again

                       ...and maybe

just maybe, keep my job.

 

I suppose I could submit myself to the octopus hands

that constantly claw at a piece of my soul...

fan myself with those who just want to straighten my sheets out for me...

or give up entirely and just become a monk or priest.

 

But... 

I like my soul and I like me,

though I know there is always room to grow...

I like to do things together with equality,

and I am stubborn, so I  don't like to be controlled.

 

I have been alone for almost 5 years,

so I have proven to myself  

that this is the right way for me. 

 

  

 

There is a fine line between Need and Needy,

and over that line just won't do to say the least.

 

So,

I will

go on questioning myself,

and wrestling the darkness and tangled blankets alone...

I will

go on repositioning the pillows

and laying down with these thoughts in search of dreams...

I will

go on offering up these torn pieces of myself

to the universe in hopes that I can finally go back to sleep...

 

It is my own damn fault, I know...

and I am ok with that really,

because through this process

I will find my reality...

the Some kind of wonderful will be worth all of this

...someday

and there will not ever again be

nights such as these.

 

 

Movie Quote:

 

"I would rather be alone for the right reasons,

than together for the wrong."

~Some Kind of Wonderful

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Reviews

[Tania Leigh]

I love that you lent tangibility to the intangibles to bring them to life....this is a great piece that I've no doubt many people can relate to...sleepless nights, questioning yourself, longing for something you haven't yet found....and when you do, will it be right for you?

A great read!

[Ice Queen of the Vampir..]

I can totally relate. This is a fantastic piece, the imagery is amazing. Awesome job!!!

Heather

[Yaooooooo]

Very nice, is so realistic that can picture myself in that bed tossing and turning. Many off us can actually relate to your poem...

[Fabian G. Franklin]

This is great, my favorite line is this phrase, " tangled blankets of dreams" ummmmm that is a delicious phrase. My compliments on this.

[Brianna Brie]

I suppose I could submit myself to the octopus hands
that constantly claw at a piece of my soul...

Just like a restless night this poem has a constant thought process carried out with a conclusion. To be alone is the best way to learn to like oneself. It is not such a bad thing. Wonderfully written.

[Kelly D. Burris]

Nice piece, was it inspired from the quote? Wonderful job with the "wrestling" feeling you brought out in this. Wrestling of the soul and with getting peace.
Kelly

[closed]

your words doth expose a fragile sector of the human spirirt, one which requires more than the unaided eye in which to fully decipher the meaning intended.

but should one do so, they may perhaps come to realize that loneliness is not so much a condition, as it is a state of mind.

-Dream

[Emily B]

Poet, know thyself, how much better would the world be if every man and woman had time to know their individual suls before getting lost in a 'couple'. You will find what you search for, it will be the sweeter for the wait.

[Genie]

You've written words I've tried so often to write, but you've done it much better than I. The final two lines need to be encased in neon or somehow imprintable on brains that -- to somewhat paraphrase a popular commercial -- we are worth the wait.

Thank you for this. As Rachel says, the metaphor of the tangled sheets and dreams and lives is outstanding. Wonderful all the way around!

[Blackbirdsong]

I really love this one and the metaphor of the sheets and untangling them alone throughout. That is so true because we are the only ones who can untangle ourselves from whatever....we can't rely on others to do our work for us.

So much truth and wisdom in these lines and I wish more people would understand that instead of settling for relationships that ultimately make them and their partners miserable just for the sake of having someone, anyone in their lives:

"I would rather be alone for the right reasons,
than together for the wrong."
~Some Kind of Wonderful

Two minor typos -

nights/
Then there are night like these,

through/
because though this process

Love this one :)

[desertraven]

love the last 2 lines. It rings true for me and my past. left an abusive marriage to start anew, with 2 young children in tow. thank you for sharing :)
Sandra