Regret At My Doorstep

07/24/09

 

I left regret at my doorstep

Watched it float off into the night

The pill I could never swallow

For a disease it could never correct

 

I buried my heart in the yard

Watched as the ground pulsated

It was a feeling I could never handle

For someone who left me discarded

 

Intentions swept beneath the carpet

The stars mummified in the clouds

Half a mile away from home I wept

Tomorrow was never coming around

 

I left mystery in God’s hand

Watched the leaves blow in the wind

It was knowing that I couldn’t handle

Not that I could never understand

 

I left sorrow with my mother

Watched tears collect in her eyes

I never planned on making her cry

But I was just one of four brothers

 

Memories strewn across the floor

The sun pretends night has come

A mile away from home I swore

I would wait until it came undone

 

I left the night inside my head

Felt it like a dense fog on the ocean

The medication I could not tolerate

But they numbed me to the pain

 

I left hope inside of a glass jar

Rolled it swiftly beneath my bed

It was a word I could not pronounce

Just another way of saying “dead”

 

Lifelessness filling stagnant air

The moon has mysteriously risen

It wasn’t as though I didn’t care

I just knew I would never win

 

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I left hope inside of a glass jar
Rolled it swiftly beneath my bed
It was a word I could not pronounce
Just another way of saying "dead"

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