Ashamed

Ashamed

I could be so much worse

then the way I am now

With everything I see

All the things I go through

Don't know how I’m still sane

I could skip school every day

no matter what you say

Pick fights with all those people

who gave me dirty looks

Do things you aren't proud of

Spend all your money to get

everything I feel I deserve

things I’ll be ashamed of

I could be drinking until I lose my senses

Smoke until my eyes are bloodshot

riding on the constant high

I could spend my nights out

with friends you don't know

I could waste away in the world

Have no purpose, no passion

No reason to keep living

But I don’t because I have you

I never do anything I know

I would be ashamed to tell you

If it wasn’t for you I would have

no dedication to do anything

I wouldn’t be persistent

I wouldn't care for anyone, not even myself

But because of you I am who I am

I care, I love, I laugh, I live

Because you are in my life

I am sorry, so very sorry

I know I don’t thank you enough

And probably will never be able to

Because there isn’t enough words to

be said or time to say it

I owe you everything

So thank you and I love you