I Don't Hate You

Call me out when I don’t go,

then throw me out when I show.

Can’t take the stupid twisted games,

that always ends in overwhelming pain.

Fooled to believe you were my greatest hello and saddest goodbye,

should have seen the trickery in your eye.

I used to be a dreamer,

Saw the  world full of possibility,

why did you have to take that from me?

Burning out the light I used to brightly show,

nothing now but just a faded glow.

Laughing so hard falling to the floor,

was the only pain I ever felt before.

Never had a problem until now,

felt this was til you came ‘round.

But I don’t hate you, I can’t hate you.

because to hate you, I need to love you.

Where are the safe loving dreams you promised me?

My head is full of nightmares with never ending screams.

Don’t know what I go through, so close to splitting in two.

Cause I’m only pushing through as every day passes by.

Falling for the darkest sweetest baddest temptation,

full of lies and manipulation.

Whatever I choose to do, I will be the only one to lose.

Whatever I choose, I am just destined to lose.

Be in love with my sadness, or intoxicated by the madness?

But I don’t hate you, I can’t hate you,

because to hate you I need to love you.

I just can’t do it, I don’t deserve it.

I just can’t do it, I don’t deserve it.

Not gonna waste my time crying over you.

Finding a way to give you another chance,

sorry baby but that’s not in my plans.

Always thought of you first,

but now I’m gonna focus on me.

Never need to second guess, no, never gonna overthink,

not gonna give you a farewell.

It won’t be perfect not even close to it.

No, It won't be perfect not even close to it.

But maybe one day, I will be able to say, without a doubt that I am okay.

But this is reality, not a childish fantasy.

You broke me down too deep.

But I don’t hate you, I just can’t hate you,

because to hate you I needed to love you.

Nothing will change that, I’m too far gone to want to come back.

Nothing will change that, I’m too far gone to want to come back.

Too far gone to want to come back.

Reviews

[wordman]

love,hate relationship,,you painted a great image

[BrendaRamirez99]

Thank you, I appreciate the feedback.

[wordman]

you`re welcome