It's Not Your Fault

It's about how I feel like I'm not following the expectations given to me by others in my life. Mainly those who I care for most like my mom but don't say what I really think.

It's not your fault you put the idea in my head.

It's not your fault I feel the need to be this way.

It's not your fault I have to hide who I really am.

To be confused of who I am.

To break out the norms I grew up following.

It's not your fault I don't know what to feel.

It's not your fault you assumed who I am.

To be held back on who I think I am,

by who you think me to be.

You have my love, you have my respect, you have me. 

But can I live up to her? The perfect girl you believe me to be?

The girl who gets the best grades.

The girl who can do it all on her own. 

The girl who will get a husband and have kids.

The girl who does no wrong.

The girl who is perfect.

Good grades? I will make mistakes.

On her own? I'll be lonely.

Husband & kids? Not sure if that's for me.

Do no wrong? I'm only human.

Perfect? I am not.

Am I enough for you? If not tell me now, so it can end.

So I can finally find out who I am.

So I can finally be me.