Storms of Depression

Depression is quite the cycle

You know you're depressed

You still carry a smile on

You push through the day

Even though you are sad

You know things will be better

But still you slice your skin

Your razor blade is your friend

And your tears are your joy

And your bed are your grounds

Finally the sun starts shining

Everything is happier now

You start doing fun things

Your smile becomes genuine

You laugh at the small things

Life is happier than before

But you see the clouds

You know the storm is coming

So you prepare yourself again

And your smile starts to fade

The storms are back

This time more angry

The thunder roars

The lightening hurts

The rain drowns you

You tell yourself you can't do it

"I can't do it anymore"

You depression starts to talk

"You can do it, just tie the rope"

But you're too much of a coward

You hold on till the sun starts to shine

Your scars glisten in the sunshine

People stare and you continue on

You only know what they stand for

And only you know what's coming again

Your happiness doesn't last long

The storm comes again in the night

You cut deeper and more often

Suicidal thoughts become a reality

You have to live with them forever

You write a note

To all those you love

"I'm sorry, I love you."

You tie the rope against your neck

You are about to step off the chair

Your mom comes in with police

She received your message saying bye

They convince you to stay and talk

They untie the rope and help you down

You hug your mom cry and ask why

You get to the mental ward

You spill out your thoughts

They discharge you after a week

You go home again

The thoughts start

The storm comes harder

The storm leaves

The next time it comes

It turns into a hurricane

and you end up in the hospital once more

That's the cycle of depression

Many hard storms

Then short happiness

Then the hospital once more

Then the hurricanes again

"Welcome to life" the depression whispers

"I will make sure it is never boring"

"f**k off!" you tell the depression

the depression says, "you'll learn"

and once again you're hit with another storm

Author's Note

*Trigger warning*

Reviews

[Charlotte]

This is amazing, it shows how you are being punished for wanting to get better, which is probably the worst part of this.

[bree]

Thank you. It is a reality for a lot of people.

[Charlotte]

Yes it is, I too live this reality