How It's Been

Just thinking. More mindful. Catching myself constantly. Giving up. Let it go.

I wonder constantly where to go next
what to do next
I wonder incessantly
what my purpose is here

Who am I really?
Why did I come here?
I want to keep learning and I want to understand

More than anything, I want to walk away from this
More than anything, I want to put this all behind me

I want to let go
I want to forgive
I want to love
I want to be set free

I want to look up at the stars and not be afraid
I want to look up to the heavens and feel content, complete
Absolute

I want to give it all up
I surrender