the happiest girl in the world

date written: May 24, 2016

I am,

The happiest girl in the world.

With my panic attacks,

The ones that weigh me down

Send the blood rushing to my head

As i collapse to the ground

And my hands tremor as i count to ten.

I am,

The happiest girl in the world.

With my anxiety,

That causes my heart to race

And my eyes to water

As my over thinking mind

Reminds me everything isn’t okay.

I am,

The happiest girl in the world.

With my isolation,

That keeps me in my room

For day on end.

That finds the only comfort

Is in the company of the voices in my head.

I am,

The happiest girl in the world.

With my depression,

That is only kept under control

With the copious amounts of medication

That are designed to balance out

All that my brain has left me without.

I really must be,

The happiest girl in the world.