Control

I sit here wondering

"Am I in control of my life

or is my life controlling me?" 

Staring blankly at the wall

watching for things to change

but they never do

because my life controls me

and I am stuck in a rut 

not knowing where the circle begins 

and where it ends.

Because maybe one day 

I will be in control 

and I will be able to live my life

the way that I know it should be.