Safety Net

I start my mornings the same way

rolling over to see that you are here

and that I am safe 

knowing that nothing can touch me

because your arms are the safety net 

which sits over the cliff

and saves me when it all becomes too much

and I jump 

hoping to leave this world

hoping to search the abyss 

longing to venture out and become something more

something bigger than who I am 

and I am so grateful 

to have that safety net

which saves me every time

but I cannot be assured

that it will always be there. 

Reviews

[John the Baptist]

The last two lines are revelatory. The speaker has become dependent on the lover, but knows in the back of her mind that hd/she will not always be there. When I first read the part about jumping and leaving the world, I thought it was in the figurative sense. Now I'm not so sure. I think depression/ anxiety may be present here.