Journal Entry 4

a poem/ journal... free writing

It's a terrible thing to love someone

heavy emotions that eat you from the inside out

and not the good eating

like baby dim the lights

but the constant racing and rolling

like I have class at 8am and a paper due at 9am

but I wish I could just lay with you and hold you

until you know that I love you

and even though I'm filled with wretched mistakes

I pray they never come out

I pray that you only see how much I love you

how greedily I love you

and I worry that you don't

that you won't

because I'm sitting with this terrible being

that makes me leap for things that may not even be there

and dream of cloudy futures

life is hard enough

but now I have to sort through this mess

and dust off my chest

so that maybe you can see clearly my love.