Journal Entry 2A Story by breTalking again...
I don't know where I left off in the first entry but it doesn't matter, it never matters. What matters is where I am now. I'm at love, I'm in love. With this man that I can't explain. If I could explain him I don't think I would love him. I can't even explain why I love him, I didn't choose him. I even tried not too, but something in me needs him, nakedly needs him. It makes my heart beat a little abnormally, and sometimes unconsciously I hold my breath. I don't know if we'll make it until forever because I have selfish tendencies, but I won't ever doubt that this is love, even if it's only for awhile.
sometimes I think I deserve better. He doesn't open doors or any of that s**t. He doesn't believe in the tradition of proposing with a ring, or raising children in one stable environment. He thinks it'd be great to live forever. sometimes I think I don't deserve him. I catch him just staring at me, and I know its nothing but love. He thinks I'm beautiful and intelligent. And I love him so much solely for the fact that I'm so difficult... and he loves me. I know this is wrong, you shouldn't love someone because they love you, but for some reason I need him to love me. I've never needed anyone to love me, if anything I encourage them not too. © 2012 bre |
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Added on October 23, 2012 Last Updated on October 23, 2012 Authorbreniagara falls, NYAbout"After a While" After a while you learn The subtle difference between Holding a hand and chaining a soul And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning And company doesn't always mean security. .. more..Writing
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