It's been some time, since I've been active on here... I've liked to say I've changed and grown as a person, but I honestly don't know if I have or not. I'm not upset though. I'm quite happy, even though I'm broke, can't pay my rent, cell phone bill, or car insurance. I'm OK, because I have amazing friends and laughing is free.
I'm still in school, pursuing psychology, I've been having dreams of quitting my job and school and moving to some random city of my choosing, where the sun is hot and the locals are a family. Finding some part-time job in a hotel or small convenient store, and renting a one bedroom shack, with a mutt and ally cat that i found wondering the streets... limp and skimp. I'll make friends with locals who are just as broke and happy as me, whose life time goals are to remain happy, then again I've been having dreams of going to flight school and becoming a pilot.
There are some things that have changed... I've told London semi how I felt about him, past tense because I'm OK with just friends now. I've met a Thomas, a Vinny, a Dennis, and a Volker aka V. Vinny wasn't for me, Thomas was from a different world, Dennis thinks I'm stupid although he'll never say it. V... I almost left stranded for more shallower reasons that I care to admit... but he's forgiven me which makes him a better person then me by default. we get along well, because we've promised to always be open and honest, even when it hurts the other person... I'm excited. but I'm still seeing Dennis which makes me stupid.
Often I feel like this. If you're going to just up and take off (Lol come to Tucson, Az so we can hang, I could use a good friend... Jk.) You've done an excellent job with this. It's hard to make yourself this vulnerable to the public. Good job :)
"After a While"
After a while you learn
The subtle difference between
Holding a hand and chaining a soul
And you learn that love doesn't mean leaning
And company doesn't always mean security.
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