thoughts from songs, #1

Put my music on shuffle, let the lyrics speak to me.

i.
i fall so fast, words on the tip of my tongue; yours are such divine poetry in comparison. how do i respond when my heart stutters, hands shake? how could i match the melodies of an angel?

ii.
demons swim in the depths of my gut, acidic and churning. the strongest causes tremors, cripples me with my flaws. the heaviest latches on, pulls me down into the depths of misery. i fear i will never be good enough.

iii.
i pick at insecurities, worry that i am not - that i will never be - beautiful enough. i tell myself that you are too good for me. i decide that i do not deserve love.

iv. this is meant to be, and i am whole; when you hold me, kiss me. i will cling and let you be the glue that holds my broken soul together. and i will collect shattered shards when you leave.

v.
you are not as perfect as i make you to be. you will break my heart. you will fall into the arms of another and i will learn to stop taking the blame. and i will learn to love myself.

Author's Note

i. tip of my tongue - the civil wars
ii. hold me down - halsey
iii. beautiful - clara van wel
v. 9 crimes - damien rice

Reviews

[LastMonth]

Not bad at all.
You've taken my contest quite literally. Theres are all valuable lessons, experienced through those poems.

The second one in particular is powerful. It's somewhat self-hateful but perhaps that is why it stands out.

Thank you for the poem.

[Brenda Woods]

Thank you so much