In Memoriam

Dedicated to my grandma - rest in peace.

there’s no way to prepare for heartbreak

all you can do is wait out the days

and they said you were dying

and i knew they weren’t lying

but i hoped it’d be alright

you’ve always stubbornly survived

but the phone call came through today

i wish we’d had more time

enough for proper goodbyes

for another ‘i love you'

to promise i’ll always miss you

but you couldn’t walk

and you couldn’t talk

and i was too far away

there’s no way to prepare for pain

and you won’t hold me again

but i’m glad

though i’m sad

because you passed in your sleep

no more pain; just peace

oh, but there’s so much i wish i could say

dear grandma,

i love you - and you know that it’s true

and i know that you’re happy

that you’ll be with your beloved again

sleep well; rest in peace.

Author's Note

I lost a loved one today - and I'm away at uni, away from family. So writing this was cathartic; the past days have been emotionally draining, knowing that she was dying, but being unable to do anything or be there. I wasn't sure whether to post this or not - I'm not the best at expressing my own feelings, I tend to write from characters points of view, or a form of exaggerated or warped truths/experiences, so this is different for me. Raw, unedited feelings.

Reviews

[highonwords]

hi brenda - i'm really sorry for your pain and loss - i hope you'll feel better soon - your poem expresses pure grief

steph

[Brenda Woods]

Thank you, Steph