Should Have Been Me

Song lyrics. Inspired by My Sister's Keeper - the novel (Jodi Picoult).

I'd always thought I'd be the first to go,
But now I'm left here all alone.
Life, it never seems to go to plan,
And you're no longer here to hold my hand.
Oh, countless times I'll think,
It should have been me.
It should have been me.

And can't we take back our childhood,
When loss was something we never understood?
Oh can't we have all those careless summer days,
Without the times full of loss and pain?
I'll try to stay strong.
But for how long,
Can I go on?

I can't help but blame myself for everything,
All I did was hold you back.
You won't get a chance to grow older,
And without you my life seems colder.
Oh, countless times I'll say,
Why is life this way?
It should have been me.

And can't I have this future,
Knowing that you'll always be by my side?
Oh can't I have this short future of mine,
Knowing I'll never be left alone.
I'll try to stay strong.
But for how long,
Can I go on?

You and me, seemed like it'd last forever.
As long as I lived, we'd be together.
Now all I have are those memories to cling to.
You're gone now, and my heart's empty and blue.

I wish I'd had the chance to let you know,
That for all we'd gone through, I loved you so.
Life, it never seems to go to plan,
All I want is you to hold my hand.
Oh, I believe,
It should have been me.
It should have been me.

(https://soundcloud.com/bravestofheart/should-have-been-me)