Seaside Kisses

Seaside kisses don't usually end well for me

So many romances start under the veil of night
with the waves crashing underneath the lifeguard tower we have escaped to

If you knew how deeply I burned for you, you'd run for the hills like all the others
I tend to force things into the gap in my heart. Things that don't fit. Things with sharp edges

But no, that's not you. What an insult. How dare I spit on your beautiful face.

I should have saved all the pain and the uncertainty for something that mattered.
Though it has numbed me, these failed romances, perhaps if I hadn't had them I would not be
as calm, as patient.

But I feel like these feelings should have only existed for you, they were wasted on the others.
It feels like a time traveling betrayal, to have wanted others as I want you right now
How could I have wasted so much of my heart on fools?

I should have saved it all for you.

Seaside kisses don't usually end well for me.

But you are not so usual love.