Lost

These pains lash at me like i am that of the lame
I cant stand the pain it brings me to a place i cant explain
A place were virtue is for the insane
And you can only live here if you feel the pain
It grabs you and thros you into the mix and you cant controll it but it gives me bliss
All i want is to escape but i feel if i do i wont feel the pain
Is the pain woth the bliss or am i insane and need to dismiss