He fell
in love after they married. Like, really, truly in love. It wasn't as if he hadn't told her a
million times all the
ways he loved her, it was just that usually he was talking to the lamp, or the
radio,
or maybe just the headboard. And it wasn't at all that profound when he
finally said it, and meant it.
It was just, there was no voice in his head
mentally adding TV character whose name I've forgotten or
green lamp that
resides in our living room. It was simply I love you, you and nothing else. He waited for
the voice, and when
it didn't come he stared at her, like he’d seen her for the first time. Her
smile gave
it all away, how she knew this was the first time, it showed him the
years of disappointment and regret
she had building up inside her from every
false positive, how she was this close
to walking out of that
door and never coming back. But it also showed that she
knew someday this would come, and even
though it was painful and full of sweet
tasting lies, it had been worth it just to finally be loved back
by the one
she’d spent her whole life waiting on.
And he
fell in love with that smile, and the sound of her voice, and how everything
seemed to revolve around her like the planets to a sun. It felt funny on his
tongue love, like
wet cotton, or
maybe how all foods taste when you first try them as a child, and unique like
he’d just discovered something the world had never felt before. And he craved
more of it.
His body ached for it, and he wanted to shout it until the whole
world knew that finally
and he was so sorry for taking so long but
now after all he loved his wife. To
be honest,
he’d love her if she left him standing there like the arrogant fool
he was, he’d love her if
she stayed with him because he was a fool, he’d love her if the sun set in the east and
rose in the west.
Her
body crashed against his, in fury, and in hope, and probably in some temporary
moment of insanity, and she was kissing him, and he was kissing her. Her lips
pulled at his heart,
as she burned her rage into his skin, and as he melted his
love over hers, and he thought
it will be
okay, like nothing else had ever been okay, as if all his life he had
settled for something
less than okay. And maybe he had subconsciously, but
somehow, she’d changed his mind, and now
everything in the universe that had
been less than okay, was just simply okay.
Because he loved, and
was loved. Though he knew damn well he didn't deserve it.
He put his arms around her, supporting
as her legs wound around his waist, and
he kissed all of the words he’d been saying for years, as if
they were more
than words. And she screamed all of her deepest thoughts and worries that had
built
up in her mind pushing her slowly towards the door, until she was begging
and pleading why, digging
into his
neck, pressing harder against him, like she wanted to get away but he was holding
her there
prisoner. And he thought it
will be okay.