Day Seven

Day seven:
Monday, June 25th

Well today is the start of a new week. I am doing pretty good considering what happened yesterday. I have the viewing for Uncle Doug today. My cousin called me last night and said that he is going to make sure he causes a scene at uncles Doug’s funeral tomorrow. I hope he doesn't. I spent the day with my cousins and my friend. I am really glad to have him as a friend; he is always there for me no matter what I am going through. Before the viewing I had to go and get my nails done at, my now, ex boyfriend’s house. We are still friends and his mother and even grandmother and I are very close. I went over and hanged out for a while before I had to leave. It was nice and it kind of felt like old times. Although it is late, I got a call from my cousin and she needs me to bring some food to the funeral tomorrow morning. So I have to put the baby in the car and go to the store. As soon as I get home I am putting the baby in bed with me and going to sleep. I sure hope I can sleep...  if not, I will juss read in my bible and get down on my knees and pray some more.

When things happen that you have no control over... and you blame yourself.

Reviews

[Peaceworker22]

This is a very hard thing to do, view the remains of your loved ones for the very last time. When things happen that you have no control over... you begin to blame yourself. It is only one of the many stages of grief. I need to take a break before I end up crying! Ack! I'll review more tomorrow. Death is never easy for the living, it is painful.

[Maan]

Exactly! this is what you do, and this.. this is the most lame thing in the whole world of feelings, emotions and sentiments that you fill a tub of pure confusion and you jump in it because you just can't do anything better than that.

[Rhea752]

don't blame yourself. i feel for you.