I try

what if i wanted to change?

change into somebody else?

what would i do?

what could i do...

 

i no longer know myself

im fed up with playing pretend

ill try

to find out who "myself" is

 

i no longer understand

when and why i let myself cry

tears of many things

regrets and lonliness

ill try

to hide them away

 

wounds inside and out

scars that have leave me with no doubt

i see blood flow

that ceasts to end

i try

to act as if there no longer real

 

with all these thoughts in my head

i try but have no reason why

i cant go on

but ill try to live life

and act as everything is alright

Author's Note

on mi mind nd felt like writing -athena

Reviews

[Kate Hunter]

well written, there's definitely no question about how you're feeling.

[Moivan Smith]

Definitely can understand the struggle. Enjoyable read, felt like it lost its smooth quality towards the end, but still message very clearly conveyed.

[Ace D Portgas]

Loved the poem...It's one that people can relate to and often have us asking that same question...People are always trying to figure out who they are

Nice poem by a talented writer

[dieuxsansculte]

"i no longer know myself
im fed up with playing pretend
ill try
to find out who "myself" is"

You can only do that when you learn that the only one you truly have to please in this life is you. I don't mean you can ignore the feelings of others. Instead I believe in something like what is expressed in the poem below. It's called the "Gestalt Prayer." It wouldn't hurt if more people tried to live by its simple rules.

"I do my thing and you do your thing.
I am not in this world to live up to your expectations,
and you are not in this world to live up to mine.
You are you, and I am I,
and if by chance we find each other, it's beautiful.
If not, it can't be helped."

- attributed to Fritz Perls

[Starry Eyed]

I know this feeling so much, it just latches onto us :) Great write

[Stephen]

I love this poem! It relates to me a lot

[Jocelin]

i like

[STAR CHILD]

wow alot of good questions
this poem intrigues me

[Stormy Weather]

I think finding who you really are is a struggle for everyone. I enjoyed reading this poem. Nice job :)

[November Gold]

Life is a never ending journey of discovering who our true Self is. You caught that feeling here very well. Nice job! XXX