just one, right?

no idea what thiz should be catogorized under O.e

just one hope... will keep you alive.
i was told that almost every day
for about six years
same person,same time
always.
i was told that i was his hope
but then again, when gone, what is it thats left?
last time i was told that, was march 27th
i was told he died in a car crash.
that it was all just an accedent...
but it wasnt..
today i opened the letter he wrote me
i refused to open it the day it was given to me
and have kept it locked away untill now

what was written was this:
"Final words befor i rest, meet the sadness in my chest.
'never leave again' just like hands upon a ticking clock
and the ticking never ends. this is a place where no wanderer can win.
you spend all of your time away, as i wait all night and day.
i know you more than he can say. Your trying to build a new today.
i know that, but you act as if no hardships have been passed
Looking back through all the nights,
Im filled with loneliness and fright.
all i see now is that hes stealing away the one i cherish.
you could change day, your heart could rearange.
Can i still be by your side, or were we really just good friends?
'never leave again' echose so sweetly in my head
freely loosing hope, ill say farewell to this hopeless life.
look, i know ive always been there for you. and i know how hard it is
for you to accept and trust someone. but now that you have, i am no longer needed.
look day, im glad i met you. Nd glad you always trusted me with everything
sorry i can no longer talk you out of doing stupid things, like those many times you almost commited suicide. you didnt want to tell that friend of yours what was bothing you
cuz you never wanted him to worry. Haha i dont blame you, i didnt tell you what was on my mind now, did i? Look, im sorry im not going to meet him.
But i need you to smile. for me. and for everyone else. Remember, when you cry, let it all out.
cuz you know i hate it when you cut yourself day.
live. laugh. love. K? promise me that, nd everything will be okay.
tomorrow, somethings gonna happen to me. forgive me for doing this day.
sorry i wont be there for you anymore. Lools like now your gonna have to trust that friend of yours with everything you trusted me with. "
 (there was a drawing of 3 pikachus and a big smily face on the back of the page... )

befor i was given the letter, it was the last time i was told i was someones hope
honestly, i dont think i gave him hope...
i should have opened it befor

Author's Note

*sigh* i feel so stupid for not opening it befor. i should have.
anyway, idk what to write or say rite now...
I really miss him. And now I can never hear his voice of see his face again -Athena

Reviews

[Samantha Heaton]

This story reminds me of my best friend Taylor, She told me everything and anything but when me and my parents moved we kind of lost connection, She sent me a message on facebook knowing I was'nt gonna be on for a whole week so by the time i read she was gonna commit suicide it was to late. Sad story, But i like it.

[Archia]

This was really sad, I loved the story in this. 'day' needs to be with a captial since it's a name, and since it's a word also it gets a bit confusing. but with a capital it should be fine.
Other than that, this was a wonderful poem/story, whatever it was.

[Kathryn]

*wipes eyes* I'm actually crying now. Loved the whole 'poem within a poem' structure, and I won't even begin to describe how sad this was. Beautiful words, and so touching that it could make a stone cry. Brilliant word, and I'm so sorry. Well done, and you are really brave for sharing :)

[Niki Wilson]

Ahhh... Enjoying this... Sad but true.

[Moto Kaligawa]

I feel so much better now,
now that I've given up hope.
The pain is gone, as well as what I expect
and now I am filled with it all.

I will not burden you with my desires
although you in my heart be one,
but for now you and I will share this,
this brief moment
and then both be gone.

[FugitiveBalloons]

So sad.

[StarSandwich]

:) Athena, This was good. this is a really sad story, and I don't know if i can relate to this fully, I've never been anyones hope. But my close male friend want to end it all I cant be his hope but I want to help :/

[Cassiopia Summers]

Wow... I would apologize, but we humans tend to apologize for things we have absolutely no control over. I will say, I will listen if you need an ear, and be here if you need a friend. We just met, but still, I KNOW how it feels when you read those words. Thanks for sharing with us.

[Rene Velez]

sad write, but necessary...

[Ciarraí Danielle..]

Wow, very powerful. So heartbreaking, as well. I'm sure you really did give him hope. If not, he wouldn't have said it. So take comfort in that, and don't regret. ^^ Stay strong.

[Dr.Pepper]

due to the sheer length of this poem, must have been written with sheer emotion. You loved him very much, I can tell by your writing. If only everyone had that one hope, one dream, one faith to believe in. Then, would you think that the world will be a better place? Have people believe in something other than themselves.
No, that's something that is impossible to determine.

Amazing poem, stay strong, little soldier