He Who Shall Remain Nameless

Poem about getting over a man while I'm in a relationship with another

 

He who shall remain nameless…......

His name is blasphemy upon my lips....

But everyday I live and breathe....

I long so passionately for his kiss....

Like Moses exiled from Egypt....

Sentenced to wander the desert land....

I live and pretend everyday....

That my heart isn’t still in his hands....

 

 

It’s a crime for me to think of him....

There’s a new Pharaoh in my kingdom....

Like Nefertiti I said goodbye....

And acted as if I never knew him....

But my heart will always remember....

The effects of this deep true love....

I used to think he was heaven sent....

Some priceless gift from above....

 

 

But love doesn’t always work that way....

It doesn’t always make sense....

Just because it feels so good....

Doesn’t mean it’s always meant.....

One thing I have learned from this....

I always carry it in my mind....

Me loving you and you loving me....

Doesn’t make us a destined find....

 

But since we stopped talking, ....

My heart wandered aimlessly....

Trying to recreate that unique bond....

But I’m a poet and not a magician....

I have no magic wand....

These feelings are so difficult for me....

I can’t even write poetry like I used to...

But every time I slip and say your name....

My heart doesn’t know what to do....

 

 

The mere mention of your existence....

Provokes emotion so poignant and profound....

My soul weeps from the realization....

Because thoughts of you aren’t allowed....

When I think of you it taints the new love ....

The realness that’s been here in your absence....

This man who parts the red seas of reality....

A prince who sees me as his passion....

 

 

This man in my life who’s been there for me....

When you were somewhere in the distance....

After I stayed around to prove my love....

All you gave me was resistance......

When we first met I thought you were a gem....

A knight in full glowing armor....

The prince charming I had been waiting for....

These memories I unfortunately harbor....

You were the one that got away from me....

The one man I totally adored....

You took the love I needed so much....

And created a woman scorned....

 

 

As the days turned into months....

And the months now over a year....

The one who’s really down for me....

Has always been right here....

Even though we don’t share what you and I had....

His loyalty has proven instrumental....

His patience and kind heart get me through these days....

 And that in itself illuminates potential....

 

I find closure now in my faith....

I thank God for sending you to me....

Because knowing this measure of love can exist....

Helped me find the one for me truly....

I believe I have that right now....

I have been blessed with a really good man....

And even though I may think of you at times....

My conscience brings me back with her commands....

 

“Don’t turn back now Boo Kitty....

All that you need is already here”....

So I block out our bittersweet memories....

And I stood up and faced my fears....

He’s always been here and you weren’t....

He makes sure that I’m alright....

He kisses my tears when they stream down my face....

He rocks me like a baby at night....

He loves me more than I love myself....

He does things that no one else can....

He cared for my heart like a wounded dove....

He loves me and understands....

 

And though sometimes I wonder....

If I’m missing out with this....

At those moments I close my eyes and silently recall......

The intensity of our passionate bliss....

I open my eyes and see his sweet face....

With him there’s no need to reminisce....

Time tested and lovingly approved....

He’s joined my heart with his....

 

So I will struggle with my heart and my head....

Don’t get it twisted I’m no fool....

I know I got a good thing going....

 I’ll be dammed if I throw that away for you....

I pray everyday for strength and courage....

I pray God takes away this hunger....

I pray he makes me a good woman for my King....

“Let no man put asunder”....

Let the rain fall and the thunder strike....

Release the 7 deadly plagues....

He’s proven that he’s with me through it all....

And here I'll forever remain

Author's Note

Will be included in my second Volume coming in March: "Love and Sex (My Soul In Writing Part. 2)