You Made Me A Mom

This is from the "Life" chapter of my Self-Published book "Through The Eyes of Boo Kitty"

For the first time I don’t know where to begin

So many years have passed; so much time has gone by

We have come a long way from that cute couple that met on State Street at Old Navy

Sometimes even now I sit and wonder

How I would have reacted if I would have known then what I know now

That you would make me a Mom

Chris I can’t believe we had a baby!

 I used to say that over and over when our angel first presented herself to us

No matter what you think or what has been said between us up until this point

Right now at this moment, know my hearts sentiments and believe this

I hold no ill will towards you

Know That I wish you so much love and happiness

I wish for you all the joy your heart can hold

God had a plan greater than the Minot one we had mapped out

It’s with his great knowledge and everlasting wisdom that the force that is Ava came forth

You piss me off, you make me want to smother you in your sleep sometimes man

But at the end of the day, one thing I know for sure

She wouldn’t be who she is without you

Your child, from beginning to end

Your eyes your toes my nose
How could I ever think of hating you

When I look into her eyes all I see is you love

I think about the good times we had in the beginning

After a year had gone by they were few and far between

Sometimes it’s just not meant to be and I can accept that

We beat that dead horse for so long and sometimes I just wonder

If we were just afraid to be without each other

Maybe that’s the reason we just kept hanging on

I guess that’s just one of those things that will reveal itself if time

And even if the answer never presents itself I’m so happy that I met you at all

My eyes overflow with tears as I feel the memories play

Like a projector of times past in my brain

My daughter’s father, Chris you will always hold a place in my heart

We really did the best we could but it still fell apart

There’s nothing I won’t do for you, we are connected till the end

If nothing else along with parents we can be eternal friends

I hope God sees fit to bless your life with lasting love next time

Eternal and pure, far greater than yours and mine

A woman of Christ, sweet genuine and appreciates you for the man you are

I pray one day you move on and marry this angel and have an eternal soul mate

Just invite me and Ava to the wedding, you know she loves cake

I will smile through tears as she throws flower petals down the isle

I’ll say a prayer for your marriage I know the wedding will have such style

Because from the bottom of my heart, all I wish for you is happiness in peace I’m so sorry that it didn’t work out between you and me……..

 

Author's Note

This is an ode to my daughters father. From the bottom of my heart.