What you don't see

Sometimes you play a role so long that you forget who you really are...

Losing my mind right now

Grasping for control

But this time I won't win

I can feel it in my soul

The fog is taking over

The poison's taking hold

I could fight a little longer

But I already feel so cold...

Still, I listen for your voice

But this world is much too loud

How could I ever find

A single voice within a crowd?

You say I should be happy

And that makes me want to scream

You THINK my life is perfect

But things aren't always what they seem...

You don't know what really happens 

What goes on behind my door

You don't see me fall apart

When I can't take it anymore

You don't know what's on my mind

You don't see behind my mask

Yet... I would tell you everything

If only... you would ask...

Author's Note

I think I'm losing myself...

Reviews

[John the Baptist]

This offering is well rhymed and conveys an urgency that seems to portend an imminent breakdown. The speaker is apparently one who does not usually share intimate feelings, and now is paying the price for such detachment. I hope this one is not autobiographical.

[kathy rivers]

Unfortunately it is autobiographical.. my freshman year of highschool was a really hard time for me... btw, you hit the nail right on the head because you perfectly described how i was feeling at the time and i really don't share intmate feelings that often except for in my poetry.

[John the Baptist]

Although it was many years ago, I recall high school as being unpleasant in a number of ways. I think it is probably worse now because of all the negative things in our society at this time. I think the last verse of the poem is an indication of what you might do. Don't wait for someone to ask. Find someone, whether a trusted friend or a professional, and talk about the things that are bothering you.

[kathy rivers]

Thank you...recently I have started opening up to my really close friends, but I've only told 2 so far.still,they have been really supportive.

[Linda Marie Van Tassell]

We live in a shallow world full of shallow people who are too obtuse to look beyond the obvious, to know when one is hurting. At the same time, we are also afraid to share, to open, to reveal the heart of who we are. One doesn't look beyond the surface, the other wears a mask that paints him/her as he/she thinks others want him/her to be. We build walls within and without. This is yet another lovely and expressive right, a vulnerable question waiting to be asked; a willing answer waiting for permission to be released. Your voice is very mature for your age, which tells me you are very sensitive to the waves of life around you.

[Chris Shaw]

You convey your feelings well here. There are many who find it difficult to share with others. The sad thing is that often if you share it can help to alleviate the problem. Some choose to out on a brave face, wear a mask and others have no idea what they are going through. That can be lonely place to be. Nicely rhymed offering.
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Chris

[kathy rivers]

Thank you so much for the feedback! it really boosts my confidence when someone writes me a great review so yours is highly appreciated.

[Chris Shaw]

It was my pleasure:)

[kathy rivers]

: ) I hope you'll check out some of my other poems. If you did, i'd greatly appreciate it!

[Chris Shaw]

I'll friend you, so I can check on your other work.

Chris

[kathy rivers]

Thank you! i also sent you a friend request.