Stranger

She awakes before I do

She tells me exactly what to do

She’s confusing

She’s all consuming

And I am left to move

Move I may, Move I must

I struggle at bonds of peace and trust

I work my heart to it’s breaking

My love for her leaves me shaking

She tells me what to do and say

And when I behave she rewards me

Love and comfort

Beauty and and trust

She is my world

She is my lust

Beauty queen

Dirty w***e

She knocks on all the stitches

She slams all the doors

She decides who I am to be

She makes my world

A place I can I handle

She is consuming

She is all confusing

And I am left in her wake

She is my savior

My body caretaker

And I am left in her peace

I brake, I bend

I mold, I shape

To the person I should be

In her wake

I listen closely

As she whispers so softly

Who I am to speak

She takes my soul

and hold it in her palms

She burns the scars

She heals the scorn

She tells me I am unworthy

I know she is right

But she shows me how

to make it alright

She is consuming

this b***h is confusing

And when I am left alone

I come to my senses

I build my defenses

but she knows I can’t hold long

Beauty queen

drama queen

You hold the only key

You hold the key to my only love

You take the strings of my lust

pillage it on my cuts

and starve me of mind and home

I am strong

I will move on

I will cut you out

But you have no doubt

You are my lover

My world

My encumbering

you take it all

and some more

Whittled to my spine

I see distorted lines

I see imperfection

so unclean

Coddle me

Swoo me

Love me

And woo me

My life is incomplete

I battle you

Worship you

Decay for you

Die for you

As I fall upon my knees

I ask of you

beg of you

demand of you

scream of you

why am I not happy?

Child you will always be

But don't be a w***e

Don't be an insignificant

like before

your weight is appalling

no wonder you're falling

fall, if you must

I rid you of my trust

You call out my demons

And scream at me, feed them

While starving my mind

and soul

You know that you have me

enraptured I can’t be

You are my only love.

So as I consume

The fires of movement

Of burning myself to peak

I lash at you

smash at you

crash at you

fall for you

Over and Over

I weep.

Take all my pain

Brake all my bonds

I needn’t a family

I have not one

I have you

My lover.

You beautiful doll

You perfect one

I am enthrall

You are consuming

You are my happy undoing

My heart is weak with your kiss

Whisper sweet nothings

This is not suffering

This is how you shall be queen

You will be perfect

They cannot destroy you

They can not break you

Do not let them shake you

You know the course

you know how to hide

Don’t forget what I taught you

And you will be just fine.

I will obey

The voice

The lady

The lover inside my head

She is consuming

She is all confusing

And here we go round again.