i want this to work

i'm so attached to you.

it hurts so deep.

i see your name as my phone rings

and people ask why i'm smiling...

 

i look around when i hear my name

and hope to see you smiling back,

but it's never you, and never me.

 

but i find reasons not to kiss you,

not to hold you, hug you, touch you...

 

because what if it isn't me?

isn't you? isn't us together?

 

what if i feel your lips

and my mind doesn't flash

to a future that i want?

 

what if your fingertips

don't match the ones

i imagine running down my sides?

down my back? down my neck?

 

i know why,

why i won't touch you;

i want this to work so badly,

but my heart, my brain, my soul

won't survive this failing.

 

i can't survive that...not again.

Author's Note

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Reviews

[LlamaLord]

I think a lot of people can easily relate to this. Whether its someone you want to love, or some you loved. Great piece. Really had me thinking about my own actions, as well as what I think of others actions. Great read. Thanks for entering my contest! Good luck