Still beating

Smiles keep the world from stopping. :)

I cut myself just now and I’m still bleeding

I guess that good, it means

My heart’s still beating

And now I’m smiling ‘cause

My heart’s still beating

It’s little things, you know

Like how I’m still breathing

And sitting here just fine

At least one more evening

 

My body is still working

So I smile to myself

My heart is usually jerking

Like a fish out of water

But right now it’s working

Maybe I’ll have a daughter

Or a son and I’ll see them

Off to school every day

And hope that when

That day comes it will be

So far off that no one knows

That this smiling is just me

Remembering that

My heart’s still beating

 

And I’ll smile to myself

When you ask why I’ll say

Because my heart’s still beating

And you’ll smile back that way

Thinking I’m just being me

But one day I might tell you

Maybe, possibly

That one in three will not

Be still beating in a year

That the doctor said

Even with the surgery

I’d still just be waiting here

Feeling for my heart and making sure

It’s still beating

Hoping I’ll still be bleeding

When I cut myself on accident

 

That’s why I’m smiling while I can

Because this world is so amazing

Because you’re so amazing

And you’re still here by my side

Even though you don’t know

That pretty soon I could die

I know you think I’m young

Even though you called me ancient

But is maturity measured

By time here or time left?

 

And so I’ll be here smiling

Next to you in my bed

Dreaming of children growing up,

Picket fences, baking bread

Doing laundry, kissing boo-boos

Kissing you upon the head

As you sleep here so peacefully

I’ll just wait by and count beats

And beg my heart to let me be

Happy a while longer

 

I’m smiling because

My heart’s still beating

I love the fact

That I’m still bleeding

Author's Note

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