love & grief

all i know is love and grief.

i know nothing in between and nothing indifferent.

but i feel the weight of the sadness and anger from grief heavy in my heart and soul,

and the same for love.

aggressive love leading to sadness,

the gravity of my love.

i can only write what i know,

but i can never conjure words to express how these two things shape my view on the world,

and how they shape me.

from me to you, its just words,

but to me, its my whole conscious & feelings.

and of course i want to be loved more than i want to be alive.

whats the point of living if i feel alone ?

but i cannot feel love without grief.

understandably, love isn't easy,

i don't want to have to find ways to 'make it easier'.

i just want to love and love and love without ever feeling the pain and loss that trails behind it, lurking.

its unfair that with such a blissful and beautiful feeling, a darkness and harrowing void trails behind it.

it's impossible to feel love without feeling grief.

the two go hand in hand.

feeling grief for something explicitly means you've felt some sort of intense admiration.

Author's Note

this one isnt really a poem i guess, its just a lot of yap yap yap

Reviews

[Ern M. Yoshimoto]

there is a lot of great insight in this harrowing and vulnerable piece.
Leonard Cohen said, "i'm good at love, i'm good at hate. it's in-between i freeze..."
and you, much younger in age, identified that falling in love is the begining of heartbreak. and how true, how sad it is. there is only one hope: that we can live long enough to achieve our dreams, and to find love that outlasts life.
but you told your story really well. it was honest and sharp, a stellar example of slam poetry.

[Thomas W Case]

Powerful and poignant. Great work.