holding You

It can never happen.
It will never happen.

But I want to hold you.
I want to feel your body against mine.
I want to feel your body move as you breath.
I want to feel your hand grip my shoulder.
I want to smell that amazing smell that is you.
That smell that I cannot even describe.

I want to whisper in your ear.
Whisper my hopes and dreams.
Whisper how much I love you.

I want you to fall crying into my arms when
you need someone to crash into.
I wanted to grab you, and hold you tight as your
heart was breaking. but I didn't.

But still every night before I fall
asleep I am thinking of you and only you.
I bring up the color of your eyes.
I bring up the texture of your hand.
I bring up your voice.

I fall into those dreams.
Those dreams where you are mine.
Those dreams where I can hold you.