Surrender

Giving in

I've been waiting for my next step
maybe you will reach your hand out for help
please hurry i'm on the edge of hell
I'm so scarred i curl back in my shell
there's some things that you don't want to show and tell

I think i have finally have had enough
this is my surrender to you, i give up
you like to beat me down i guess it makes you feel tough 
it seems the whole world wants me to suffer
you like to watch me drown in my bad luck

Is there anybody left that i cant trust
is there anybody out there that i can touch
is there anything out there that i can still love
i would give my life for one more day if I must
but you have frozen me in time and I'm stuck

Where are you, I can't see
I can;t see you and it kills me
I search for your face in the crowd
you've been gone so long that it begins to drown out
and it kills me that you can't be found 

Since you have been gone
I don't know if i should really belong
it feels as if there's a demon that's about to spawn
with-out any ones help I don't know if i can go on
I'm so young but it feels like i have been here for so long
So i guess i will trap myself in-between these walls