The Girl Who Is NothingA Poem by Cera Perry-Johnson
My mother forced me to sit
at the table with the rest of the family. Anger swelled within me as I saw the greasy, fat filled food on the plate. We prayed together and everyone dug in. I pushed my food around on my plate and separated it into sections. I was sitting there for over an hour with a full plate. I lie and say I had breakfast. I lie and say my stomach hurts, therefore I cannot eat lunch. I lie and say that I ate a huge snack right before dinner and that I'm not a tad bit hungry. People began to suspect, I suppose. Mother sat down with me and had me eat. I shoveled everything down and immediately took my place in my beloved bathroom. I stuck my index and middle finger deep into my mouth and dinner came up. Music was blaring in the bathroom. I go straight to the scale. 90 pounds. Not enough. Fat. Worthless. Nothing. I go straight to bed. I cry myself to sleep. I cry in Math as candy is being passed around the classroom. I ate over 500 calories today. I'm so stupid. My math teacher had me spill everything. Next thing I know I am in a treatment center on weight restoration. Not enough. Fat. Worthless. Nothing. Red drips onto the tile. Not enough. Fat. Worthless. Nothing. I see white. Not enough. Fat. Worthless. Nothing. I am Nothing. I am Gone. © 2015 Cera Perry-JohnsonReviews
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1 Review Added on February 27, 2015 Last Updated on February 27, 2015 Tags: eatingdisorders, suicide, selfharm AuthorCera Perry-JohnsonTXAboutI'm thirteen and I use my dreams and aspirations upon my fictional characters. more..Writing
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