Romance And Pain

some are just not made for love

 

Romance with lots of pain

I knew her all the way ,since I set foot on that wonderful island when she first asked me if I was really from Iraq ,and she laughed ,and joked that she was also from Mars ,when I affirmed what I said ,she just looked at me with stunned eyes ,not believing ,you are joking right, she said .No ,I went on…

She just kept looking, now very silent ,there was a long a pause ,I could look in those beautiful blue eyes ,she was so tall ,very nice looks ,eyes so wild and lively ,yes I was drawn and accustomed to her looks and to her face ,she really broke my heart every time I looked at her from afar ,but then she would eye me every while ,I really wondered...

So there was a long pause when she said ,so you are from there , but I heard no one is left there ,I thought everybody died in a while ,then there was another pause where she kept looking at me ,yes she said ,it serves you right ,you fought the whole world ,then her lips quivered and eyes gone moist ,I could hear, see muffled sobs ,then she said so faintly ,no ,no really I never meant it dear ,I am sorry, you never deserved that, I heard from my sister once she worked in Iraq ,she told me ,you were nice people,oh yes they never let you live ,but surely they want you all dead ,now there was almost wild tears ,and cries ,tell me , she said, there are so many like you from there, like us human ,with everything, hands legs ,nothing missing ,I heard there were some horrible things from there,oh dear how could you stand all this and still in your right senses, do you really still feel like us ,do you love, could you love me ,I saw you look at me once ,but I dismissed it ,now that I know ,how could you love ,I think all you do is hate ,do you hate me ,but I love you dear I could take you in my arms give all the kindness in the world and protect you from the so much pain you surely feel ,what have you done to deserve all that ...

We were standing at the entrance to the emergency rooms, under a small roof that kept us dry from the raging rain, as now ….

 it was raining like mad, as if the skies were also sad and crying, the rain, the heavenly tears ,that's why I think I went down the rain so it fits me well, I was near her ,I was looking in front of me and I kept silent all the while ,then seeing the rain ,I was taken by the great sight, the rain kept pouring on the all around you high green grass, all the tall trees, the sight was great I felt myself very unworthy of the going on sad talk ,I took some steps into the rain, I did not know what I was doing she must think I was going mad, I was a mess now, all wet ,but I just liked to feel wet and having that rain falling on me and I turned around to her ,I looked at her ,she was somewhat baffled at me ,her eyes looking suspicious, that I could have gone mad ,I took a long look at her and smiled in a very silly and loony way ,you think I am mad ,I said ,yes I think so dear, I went on, sometimes I got these wild fits ,I am sure I am crazy somehow ...

she looked back and was very alarmed ,I think she wanted to pacify my feelings and smiled ,I could see it was a forced smile for I could see she was really alarmed at what was going on ,and said ,come on dear, come back from the rain ,you will mess up your clothes and hair, and your soul ...

I looked back ,no ,I said ,leave me here ,you go back in ,I will not bring my troubles onto you ,I am really troubled in mind, I want to stay in the rain ,and I kept smiling that very unhealthy smile ,very surprisingly ,she came into the heavy rain ,took my arms and took my head in her hands and kissed me strong ,it was the sweetest thing I ever felt in a while ,I just kept looking at her eyes ,now I could not hold my tears any more so I let myself into a frenzy cry ,she just kept kissing me on my cheeks like trying to wipe the tears away ,and she hugged my tight ,I was so happy while still crying ,it was very mixed feeling ..

Here she pulled at my arm and took me back to the back yard of the building, this is the back door to my room, she said, and she went in and pulled me inside, and closed the door.

Author's Note

things that happened ,just will not get off my mind

Reviews

[emmajoy]

War and what it does to human beings is hell on earth. The nights of fear, not knowing if there'll be another day; days of perpetual war-made noise mingling with the eruption of bombed buildings , screams, calls for help, calls to unseen family, and then deathly silence before it all begins again and again and again. The loss of loved ones, the loss of dignity, the fading of a culture and history - all that's happened before century after century after... and, continues today. No wonder tears need kisses. No wonder people need kindness and sweetness.

One day Mankind will achieve success - war will have won, Earth will be gone- there'll not be a world. Curtain down. The play's over. It was a tragedy. But there'll not be another one, there's nobody left to fight.

Sorry, written too much but your story got to me. Such a thought provoking piece.

[Kristina Moulaison]

There is much wisdom in this piece of writing and the raw truth of human emotions. That in this mixed up world of pain and suffering all we truly desire is for someone to love us and in this there is healing. The world makes sense in that moment when we are not alone. It was a beautiful ending that made my heart ache to think about that longing that is inside all of us. Thank you for sharing this. It was very compelling and beautiful.

[by S.D.]

Wow, very poetical. It definitely pulls you in.

[Celtic Cat]

NO NUKES! NO NUKES! NO NUKES! Excuse my unlady-likeness here: F**K THE IGNORANT IDIOTS WHO BELIEVE THEY ARE BETTER THAN ANYONE, FOR IT IS THEIR IGNORANT ASSES THAT WILL LOSE HARD IN THE END. WHILE MANY MAY NOT BELIEVE IN KARMA, IT DOES EXIST, WHAT COMES AROUND DOES GO AROUND AND THE WICKED WILL PAY. THEY WILL PAY.

Stay strong, my friend. I know you are sensitive..... and some opinions are horrendously thrown about here, but you are loved. You are loved.

[Pink Poison]

I really enjoyed reading your story. It does make one wonder how anyone could live through terrible experiences and still be capable of love and compassion, but it has proven true time and again.

I like the way you set the mood with the rain and the greenery around them - not just dark, but beautifully and compellingly dark, as is the man in the story's life and thoughts must be.

I like the way he stepped out into the downpour, to distance himself from those emotions, but also with the underlying metaphor of the rain being a cleansing thing and it almost seemed like a rebirth when she went out into the rain and kissed him, then took him inside the building and shut the door. An excellent story all the way around.

[lAcEy_LoO's Poems Site]

I liked it...

[Nik Dendera]

Interesting. It does have a slight futuristic feel, but not in a space age sense. Makes you wonder just where the world is heading...

Romance is pain, we love and we hurt, such is the human condition. But well done on this piece. It must be hard to write about such things, but as I've said before, writing is the only true liberator we have.

[Blade & Blood (The ..]

...Why do I feel like I've read this before?

Well, I'll ignore the sense of Deja vu...

It's funny how rain always sets the mood... Romance and pain? It goes hand in hand, doesn't it? ...especially when race is involved. :P

Thanks for this one... you've got a knack for romance stories, I'll admit to that. I think I can sort of relate to it. :/ Huh...

Ironically Yours, Blade and Blood

[Maria C. Donado]

That's sad. Very sad. But still good. Liked it.

[T]

I can imagine why this stays with you in mind and heart. It is difficult sometimes for others to walk in your shoes and know where you come from....To end it with the healing kiss was beautiful, thanks for sharing your moment in time.