"Okay."

Everyone tells me, don't let the opinions of others be the basis for your decisions. I tried that; I explored.
When I returned, when I left, and as I was there, people said "Don't go. "

I went.
I explored.
I went on an adventure.
I had fun.
When I returned I had emptiness greet me as I was welcomed with disgust.

"You shouldn't have gone." they said.
"I went. " I replied.

"That was a bad choice. " they said.
"I went. " I replied.

"We will never let you forget this." they said.
"Okay. " I replied.

"You should feel horrible about yourself. " they said.
"Why?" I asked.

"that was a bad choice. " they said.
"Okay." I replied.

"You're a bad person. " they said. "
"I'm sorry." I replied.

"Don't apologize, learn from what you did. " they said.

"Okay." I replied as I silently nodded as I accepted the fact that I'd never know or understand what I did wrong. I made a decision, felt happiness, then was punished. Whenever it arises, I'm met with this overwhelming feeling of guilt or something I will never see as wrong.


"Okay. " I will respond.