Father's life lesson

I was always raised to show no emotion,never trust anyone, love not real, and it's better off to be alone

I believed in him

He was my father, I trusted him and lived that way

I never thought it would cause so much trouble in my life

I lived this way for my whole life

Never questioned it

But as I got older it messed with my mind

The first time I showed my emotions I got shot down 

I couldn't stop my tears, they refused to acknowledge me

Scarred me

Till this day I don't cry or let anyone see my pain

I trusted someone once

They used it against me and 

now I don't how to open up

I loved once and he had forgotten about me

Left a huge scar on my heart

No matter how many people I'm around with, they don't notice me

Never noticed the real me

I understand why my father told me this

People are selfish but I really hoped he was wrong

I tried multiple times hoping he was wrong

but in the end I was left alone, more broken as ever than before

Who would have thought

I became colder than ever

Emotionless to myself and to others

The toll of being mistreated was too much 

Silly of me to thought my father was wrong

I should had listen to him to begin with 

and maybe, maybe I wouldn't be in so much pain

I just wanted to believe in someone

Someone to trust

There is no such thing

Humans are just selfish creatures.