Too hard

I hesitate to ask

Fear overtook me

Scared that they will leave or judge me

I don't know how to ask for help

I don't want to feel this way

I'm going overboard

The conflicts within me is too much to handle

I just want it to be over

But I'm scared of the after mass 

My hands are trembling when I try

Instead I avoid it

I'm sorry that I can't

It's hard for me too

I just need someone

Someone to hold my hand and stay beside me

I just want to feel secure

I'm not asking for too much am I?

I'm slowly fading away

Does anyone notice?

It's hard to smile, to breathe, to act, to move or just being here

I don't know what to do anymore

I just want it all to end

I can't handle this anymore

Maybe just maybe I deserve this

I'm meant to suffer 

Is it alright for me to feel this way?