The Changes

Time is so cruel. We changed so much as the days past. My feelings for you haven't changed but strangely it got stronger. It gets over whelming for me. It shouldn't pain me but it does. I don't understand where I went wrong. I try so hard to communicate with you.  In the end you refuse to talk to me. It hurts so much. The thought of you is like 1000 of needles stabbing me. I know I should move on but I can't. I  remember the first day I met you like crystal clear and that you changed my life. I can't do anything without you. I blame myself for everything that happened. But it's dumb that I do since it wasn't just me. It's partially your fault as well. I don't want to blame myself. I'm self destructing because of you. We came so far and now it's wasted for nothing.