The Mirror

Why is it that every time I look in the mirror,

I see someone different?

I know it’s essentially me on the other side,

but I can’t help but think

that I’ve changed.

What’s even stranger is that

I can’t monitor this change.

I can’t tell if I’ve progressed, recessed,

gone up, down, left, or right,

sideways, front ways, back ways,

long ways, short ways

high ways, low ways,

good ways, or bad ways.

All I know is that I’m different.

 

When I look at my hair,

I can’t help but think

that it’s supposed to be like it is.

If it’s messy, is it because I didn’t comb it,

or is it because I just haven’t had time

to fix it from working all the time

and trying to make ends meet?

If it’s decent, is it because

I combed it well enough to hold,

or am I trying too hard to give the impression that

nothing’s wrong

and I have no worries in my life,

when during such time I couldn’t be more anxious

over nothing?

 

I consider my eyebrows.

Are they up in excitement?

Are they up in worry?

Are they down in sadness?

Are they down in determination?

I DON’T KNOW!

All I know is that I still have them.

 

Sometimes, I look into my eyes,

almost staring indefinitely

at the green/hazel ambience

that surrounds the black abyss.

It’s an introverted sunburst

with rays shooting from and in every direction

and leading to an inner zero-point.

Does this symbolize me?

Am I so colorful and full of life on the outside

and nothing but a starless night-hole on the inside?

Sometimes I feel like it,

but I know better.

Stars make the night come alive;

the darkness makes the light so much more beautiful.

 

Every time I look in the mirror,

I think of where I’ve been and where I’m going,

but nothing matters more than

where I am.

The past and the future are relative

to my absolute presence.

All background behind me

and all foresight in front of me.

ALL

depend on the what I see in the mirror,

NOW,

and I’m not about to let that down.

Reviews

[MoriartyMesa]

I liked this but at the same time I think there was some holding back. It would be a smashing spoken word, maybe that is a genera that you would feel more relaxed.

[Brenden Taylor]

Hey! Thanks for the feedback. Might I ask what you felt was missing or being held back?

[Ariana H]

Very good! I love the last stanza of the poem(: