The words were in red, I think I know why. I know a lot of people that felt the same way you are now, but, the thing is that they get better. Half of them, their lives are... honestly, I can't even tell you. But somehow they can find the will to smile every day and laugh, and if they can, I bet you can, too.
Death is not the only cure for pain, there is also the option of living through it, because you really don't know what life can bring to you. Life is a blessing and should be treated as such, I do, believe me, see it from your point of view. But please be careful, I don't know you at all, but I would hate to see you dead. However the poem itself is beautiful, you do have a few spelling mistakes, but over all, it is really mysterious and leaves the reader wanting to read more. :)