Past Misguidances: Hope for Another Route.

emotional and descriptive. tell me what you think?

 

Show me;
show me what I have to do,
where I have to go.
Because I'm lost.
Up is down,
down is up.
right is left,
left is right.
I see a picture and it's enough
to flood me with memories.
Oh show me how to love-
to open up to people.
Show me how to trust.

 

Looking down, scars on my wrists,

remembering how I once was,

and how i used to feel,

how life used to treat me

and what I got from it.

That was without you.

Now I'm seeking you,

and I beg of you not to let me fall

into the sinking sand of darkness and pain

I used to be completely covered in;

where every waking day it would

drag me further and further,

sometimes so close

I almost drowned in my own sorrow.

 

I had no trust then; no

belief,

confidence,

happiness,

faith.

All I had was

self pity,

pain,

blood,

seeping through every night

as the razor would pierce my skin,

slicing it,

even carving words sometimes,

as if my flech were only a slate

and nothing more.

 

The scar is still there,

the one that said "lost".

That was when You and me were far away.

Now we are much closer,

and I have found that I need you.

I used to hate needing people,

having them be my only source of happiness,

but now I'm seeing things in a new light.

Because;

You're not a person.

You're so much more.

 

Though sometimes I feel myself

get stuck into the sinking sand of pain and anger,

wallowing in treacherous agony,

for the most part You have cleansed me.

And I must ask of You.

You can't take the scars of the past away,

nor the pain and morosity I once felt,

the alone-ness I was shrouded in,

but You can help me now.

So will you please give me direction?