Weighted Faith

A letter to God.

Dear Lord,

 

   In this "stronger" me, I feel assured. Assured that You will take care of me beyond what any person could. Assured that life is going well and that I'm being a faithful daughter. Assured that my actions are helping a multitude of people in the way you wish. Assured that things can only get better. Assured that I am certainly becoming a new creation through You. But there are some doubts. I've done some stuff that other people might find unforgiveable. I've hurt some people with my actions, and I've made wrong decisions. There's this part of me that wants to move on, to forget recent mistakes that may have caused pain. But there is also this part of me that just can't forgive myself for what I did or move on from that incident. There's this part of me that I just can't hide from this growing relationship with You. And it's holding me back. I'm not sure what You want me to do about it. I have some ideas. But I just ask for guidance, oh Father. Because I feel terribly bad. And I just can't move on feeling guiltless. Is this Your conviction? Or is this the devil trying to hold me down? I just wish I could hear Your voice, loud and clear in my life. But sometimes You speak in whispers, like You did with Elijah. I just pray that I can hear with clarity and be willing to make those healing steps. Thank You for Your love and for ALWAYS being there for me. I couldn't need anything more.

 

In Your Son,

Amen