But how?

When someone i love is hurting and ive got to pull through I write my worries down in poem or song form

I wanna remember all the little details, 

Put a face to that name

Why does it have to be so painful

You cry when you look my way 

But my memory only serves, an image or too

You bring past thoughts and i don't know what to do

It's been five years, I've barely seen you face

But now your in the hospital tryna stop the pain

It flickers like a candle

It won't go away

Its clawin at my heart and messin with my brain

My anxiety has accumulated, stirrin up a storm

I feel so exhausted, i feel so worn

What do i do now

Where do I go?
When i feel like i'm going to overflow

I'm a ticking time bomb, slowly counting down

Down to the day it all crashes round

My dams filled too high it's bout to cause a flood

Forcin me to try, to trudge through the mud

Past is my past and now is now

Tryna keep it separate, tryna wind it down

But how?