Chapter 16

        I laid on the ground and listened to Fox’s parting words to me.  We both knew I was going to die.  The man basically ripped out my organs with that switchblade.  There would be no coming back from this one.  I was finally dead for real.  Somehow this comforted me.  All the pain and sadness would end.  

        Then I felt sorrow for everything I’d done and didn’t understand why.  But then I finally got it as Fox talked to me.

        “Fox, I think I finally get the joke,” I said and started laughing maniacally.  Life is a joke.  It tosses you all kinds of crazy s**t just so at the end you can have regrets and feel good about certain things.  I regretted almost everything at first, but I thought about and realized I felt good about some things.  I felt good about my time I spent with Christine as short as it was.  I felt good about killing some of the people I did kill, those that were recipes for disaster.

          I didn’t know what was going to be waiting for me on the other side but I felt okay about that.  If things were really great I’d be with Christine.  If things were as bad as I thought…well the devil was going to have one mean m**********r on his hands.

        Then I saw Fox fall down beside me with a hole in his head.  I wasn’t going alone I supposed.