Catching his curiosity was a ruthless scheme;
I smiled mountains when I felt none at all and I looked into his eyes like I knew how to stare right through him,
And I hoped he would mistake this desperate effort for pure boldness.
I told him I loved him still and avoided his gaze the following day,
Trying to enchant him with a type of ferocity that I did not actually own.
And I walked past him everyday,
Pretending like his memory wasn't killing me quietly,
Like the thought of him couldn't rip me from my sleep.