Final Goodbye

A suicide note that i had written before i decided not to kill myself.

We never thought it

would happen to us,

but then it did.

Sitting and planning images,

images of marriage,

living together,

and kids filled our heads,

the best laid plans of mice and men.

And now here we stand,

feeling our plans

and future turn to sand.

After night after night,

and after fight after fight,

we finally realize that we're

each others kryptonite.

The memories playback repeatedly,

filling me with love and pain

at the same time.

I am no longer yours,

and you are no longer mine.

There is never a moment,

not at anytime,

when you do not occupy

my mind.

I don't know how

it got like this,

were we always this way?

Did my love make

me blind?

The remorse and pain

threaten to overwhelm

my mind,

but i can't fix this,

anymore than i could turn

back the hands of time.

So thank you for

everything that you've done,

for digging through all

that filth and grime,

for finding the true me,

buried deep inside

and polishing me until

i shined.

As i write this i cry,

so thank you,

this is it,

my last and final goodbye.

Goodbye love,

goodbye, and good luck.